“I was tricked.
And now I can see that it wasn’t you who tricked me or anybody else I accused along the way. It was me that did it.
It started with a lie about something I never wanted to know so I lied to myself that I knew it.
And then I lied to myself about things I saw but never wanted to see.
And when you get so good at lying to yourself and everything and everybody around you, before you know it your whole life is just a lie.
Reality is twisted all up in a big tangle. You can’t trust yourself, so you damn sure can’t trust no one else.
And so when somebody comes along that shows you the truth, cos they’re made of truth, and never known nothing but truth their whole life.
Well, to my mind, all up in my big tangle, they must be the biggest liar I ever met.
And not just a liar but also the most ruthless, cruel and spiteful son of a bitch.
Either that or they’re just fucking crazy.
But it’s me that was those things.
All of them.
And I see that now.”
Jack/Jimmy Marshal
For creative writing
January 26 2023
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